Be Patient, Work In Progress

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 In this post I.m not exactly sure to whom I'm speaking.  Either to my audience or am I speaking to myself?  

I need to explain a bit where I am going with this blog.  I have been doing a lot of Soul searching this year which has really led me to You Tube videos.  At 1st I stumbled on them to watch short videos of interest be it Bishop Barron, life of the different Saints of the day, The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon, funny SNL skits as well, etc.  These led me to check out if they had other self help type videos such as exercises while healing from a broke ankle. Which in turn led to dating advice videos after my break up, which has led to even more.  I have been watching life coaches and interviews of women with similar interests and stories as my own.  I stumbled on an interview with Erica Wiggenhorn interviewing a widow of 6yrs and her story, Lori Rohlinger, who encourages other widowers to move on in life.  At the end of the interview was the post of her blog site Lorirohlinger.blogsite.com and I checked it out.  Lori is a beautiful writer which, believe me, I realize my writing style in completely different.  With that said, reading her blogs have really resignated with me.  My blogs are truly just my thoughts written as if I were journaling in my little pink keyed diary. 

I suppose my take away, is that her story had certainly inspired me.  I have had many people tell me that my (Dick & I) our story is an amazing and inspiring story or life.  I believe now that I am starting to get it but have just been to close to it to see.  But my life has been a different walk and I know that I have mis- step many times along my journey, but please be patient with me for I am a work in progress.  The Lord is not finished with me just yet.  And I Good News.... I get it now!!!  The Lord is working on me and my eyes have been opened to see that the right people in my life understand this about me.  My best and closest friends hang with me and continue to see the good and hope in me!!!

Who knows at some point  I may not push people away, but embrace them and be able to share my story out loud, to encourage and support other caregivers and widowers that life is good, wonderful and a work in progress. 

 




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