How Do I Keep the Faith When I’m So Damned Angry

 What is on my mind is my thought today.  I have a list of prayers and my top prayer is for my sister Janie after surgery.  Praying for her speedy and full recovery.  I have so many thoughts but I have just been having a difficult time focusing and putting them into to words, hence my lack of writing anything lately.  When I get like this I seem to just forget everything.  I know it is called ADHD but at this age we were  never diagnosed with such things.  I just feel scattered! Now back to prayers.  There are  times when I say I'll pray for you.  At pray I have to really try hard to remember who or what I am praying for so I try to cover all by saying and all my intentions but can not remember at this exact time.... I hope that's okay???

 This past weekend was the 7th Anniversary of Dick's death, 02/05/2015.  In a couple weeks it will be the Anniversary of the Accident, 02/19/1987.  When I received an email from the Jesuit Spiritual Center of an upcoming retreat on Restoration and the gifts of the Holy Spirit that would be happening on 02/05/2022 I could not pass it up, I could not think of a better way to spend my day. This date is also significant because it just so happened that Dick's passing happened on our new daughter in law's birthday.  I am really into the significance of numbers... anyway Emily was turning 35, and I wanted her to send her a special bouquet of flowers.  Dick's accident was 35 yrs ago. I received the message that the flowers had been delivered but when I spoke to our son Dan he said they did not receive them but that it was okay because they were having a great weekend.  I was in a tizzy... I had to decide weather or not to leave for the retreat due to freezing, col...

 I have been rejected yet again by the new guy.  I have experienced this more this year than any other time in my life.  I know someone else who had been rejected in a job position, well actually I've known of a few.  I have children in my job that have been rejected by other children not wanting to play with them. Is there anyone who can say that they have never felt rejections?  I doubt very much that there is.   I believe that we all receive rejection and handle it in accordance of where we are at emotionally.  I feel that if you are dating, in a job, with friends, etc. our state of mind and confidence comes into play.  I happen to have been in a very solid place, state of mind at the time I was presented by a friend to start dating this particular individual.  I was not out searching so when he abruptly ended our dates I find myself  doing rather well.  This was not the case after my past relationships because I had taken t...

 Hi All, I have no Earth shattering news, which I for one find to be good news.  What do they say? "No news is good news.; and I am ecstatic to share this with all.   I am very good in life when things are just copacetic, meaning in excellent order.  I suppose all the stars are in alignment in my world and as far as I know everyone I know is good and well.  Now with that said I must explain that being from a very large family and having a large circle of friends that I am not going through life unscathed, or no one to pray for.  Oh no, In my life and I'm sure as in your own, we always have our prayer list of concerns.  What I am talking about in this blog is simply I have nothing Earth shattering or any real new big life reveals. And I like this sense of normalcy.  I have great news that over the weekend my hometown NFL football team is participating in the play offs which has brought so much excitement for Cincinnati!!! We play again on Sund...

 In this post I.m not exactly sure to whom I'm speaking.  Either to my audience or am I speaking to myself?   I need to explain a bit where I am going with this blog.  I have been doing a lot of Soul searching this year which has really led me to You Tube videos.  At 1st I stumbled on them to watch short videos of interest be it Bishop Barron, life of the different Saints of the day, The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon, funny SNL skits as well, etc.  These led me to check out if they had other self help type videos such as exercises while healing from a broke ankle. Which in turn led to dating advice videos after my break up, which has led to even more.  I have been watching life coaches and interviews of women with similar interests and stories as my own.  I stumbled on an interview with Erica Wiggenhorn interviewing a widow of 6yrs and her story, Lori Rohlinger, who encourages other widowers to move on in life.  At the end of the interv...