The Minimalist

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 Well hello out there on this frigid Monday morning in January!!  Things are going fabulous in my new condo.  I have had so much fun decorating and what I mean by decorating I mean having things updated.  I started with having the carpet pulled up and having fabricated wood floors installed in the main living area, office and stairs.  Buying outdoor furniture for the patio, landscaping the back yard area and now having the upstairs painted.  All big projects but is giving the place a much needed face lift.  Much like what I feel like I could use at about this age... lol

I believe I have mentioned my "boyfriend" in the past.  He was suppose to be joining me in the condo journey but he has since decided that he really does like living on his own and enjoys his own home way more than he thought and moving in with me isn't going to work for him.  I must tell you that I'd be lying if I didn't say that I was a bit disappointed in his decision for a few different reasons.  Number one would be just the disappointment of the rejection in my heart.  I truly believe that "he was the one" and we would live happily ever after... Disney!?!  Like they say, it only happens in the movies.  Number two is absolutely the financial burden that I have now taken on.  I can handle it financially but it certainly would have helped to have the extra income combined.  Oh well, I have to move on and see where God will lead me on this crazy journey called "Life".

As I mentioned the heartache of rejection.  That is the worse part of course.  Knowing the reasons why are hard to swallow but what it ultimately came down to is he is older, extremely set in his ways and just loves "his stuff" more than he loves me.  True story.  I am a minimalist and very proud of it but not to an extreme, I have just learned to cut back on the things I thought I needed to own in order to live.  But he on the other hand has accumulated many things and although he has tried to eliminated some things he cant get the point of moving over here.  With that said it leads me to believe the inability to move has more to do with he is just extremely set in his ways.  So I get it.  No hard feelings it's just now I have the choice which I've already made, of either seeing him on occasion or merely moving on, which is what I will do.  In my world it is just too difficult to love a man wholey and then simply go back to dating on occasion.  So I will put my life and future in the hands of God to lead me in the direction he feels suits me best.

The Prayer when we met to talk over our joining or not to joining our household/lives goes as follows;

Dear Father,  Only you can bring couples together at the right place and the right time. The truth is you know the end from the beginning.  We want what you want for us for only you know the best.  Lord, true submission to your plan for our lives mean we are willing to sacrifice this relationship if you ask us to.  If the relationship is not your will, we ask for your grace and strength to part ways.  If it is your will that this relationship be restored then we ask in agreement for your help and blessing in Jesus name.  Amen



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