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Ponder, ponder, ponder

Right now, today, I am at a place of complete confusion. It is the most beautiful weather here in Harrison OH. I have just decided to sit out on the screened in porch to write. When I came out here this morning I did not have anything specific that I wanted to write about. But the temperature is so absolutly pleasant. I am sitting here with an anxious feeling that I will be disturbed. Knowing that Dick is home full-time and the elevator is broke, you never know when he'll scream "KATH". I also hear Jackie routing around in the kitchen. The next door neighbors are adding an addition to their kitchen and the saw and hammering is rather disturbing but not as much as the country music someone just turned on accross the street. It must be someone working on the road. Wow, that was quick, they turned it down. I just love the sound of the crickets, birds and cicadas chirping. But when you sit down to write you hear it all We have had many expenses of late. Unexpecte...

Blueberries

Yesterday I had a dinner party for my Dad's 74th Birthday. Just family. It just amazes me now how much Dad and I have in common. Mom had baked a blueberry pie for dessert. Dad picked the berries from the place that I recommended. Then we started to talk about the berries. I picked 10 lbs. Dad also picked 10lb. But the weird thing was I started to tell him how I just loved being there, out in the sun, all alone, and close to God. My Dad got a wierd look on his face and I just knew that he had had the same experience. We shared this experience, not their together but we had the same wonder thing happen. I told the family when I was the at the berry farm how I looked at the bushes and their beauty was so overwhelming. I just felt one with the Lord. So very close. It just amazed me how beautiful the bushes were, with the hot sun beating down on me, the sweat was pouring from my forehead and the spirit of God was so strong that it brought tears to my eyes. Normally I would ...

Anxiety

I'm having much anxiety lately. Being bored has a lot to do with it. I had planned on having a full-time job, career by now but stuff happens. I have to be home right now to take care of my hubby, he needs me. This is where I am suppose to be at this time. things don't always go as planned. I feel like I have let things slip away abit. I feel like I need to just step in here and take the bull by the horns and get things back on track. I have thing thing I call faith, faith in God. And right now I just have to sit back and know that "He" will take care of me.