How Do I Keep the Faith When I’m So Damned Angry

It is amazing how when bad things happen that just keep accumulating like a rock collecting moss while rolling down that hill. We have really been hit this month and then on Sat. we got a couple more whammys! I had had it, I was definetly not feeling happy and I had no positive outlook, as a matter of fact I was thinking I am too depressed to go to church tomarrow. Dick & I had been fighting all week and worse than that I just have not wanted to be in the life I'm in anymore (struggle with this everyday). It is very difficult to explain the life of a caregiver to anyone who has not been there. I do thank God for the support I get on www.wellspouse.org Sat.night I get a call from my sister Julie asking me to pray for her sister in law who has battled cancer for many years, she said I know you pray, you really pray so will you dedicate your mass on Sun to Diana who is having test done on Mon Morning at 7:ooam? Well, with that she reeled me back in because I believe that tha...

Once again, long time since I've written. I hardly know where to begin so I'll just go by situations. The shit hit the fan once again with my troubled brother Jim. We have not heard a word from him for a year and then the week of Dad's big golf outing, we all hear from him through e-mail, he request we all "friend" him via e-mail. My radar went off and had to check into things and without going into detail he has at least two big scams going on. My parents were contacted by a friend of Jim's who has basically been supporting him and has just now realized that he is a drug addict. He all remember telling this man this information but he was shocked conforted Jim and he became livid. He has now verbal abused mom & dad via e-mail and on their answering machine. He is so very desperate and sick he would do anything to anyone without caring who he hurts. He is a complete socialpath and deserate drug addict. Sister Mar, is all good news. She has made a ...