How Do I Keep the Faith When I’m So Damned Angry

I can't believe I did not write about this so I playing catch up. I have been saying Thank You God everyday since I heard from my son Dan concerning his job. I had been waiting to hea that his internship in CA would be extended through Sept. when he finally called he said "Mom, they offered me a full-time job with benefits". OMG!!! Thank You Lord!! I have been praying for God's will, one of the things that I have been praying for that I can not control. The other few on my list are a job for my SIL, a new job for my daughter and a safe, healthy delivery of their new son. I'll keep you posted!!

It is amazing how when bad things happen that just keep accumulating like a rock collecting moss while rolling down that hill. We have really been hit this month and then on Sat. we got a couple more whammys! I had had it, I was definetly not feeling happy and I had no positive outlook, as a matter of fact I was thinking I am too depressed to go to church tomarrow. Dick & I had been fighting all week and worse than that I just have not wanted to be in the life I'm in anymore (struggle with this everyday). It is very difficult to explain the life of a caregiver to anyone who has not been there. I do thank God for the support I get on www.wellspouse.org Sat.night I get a call from my sister Julie asking me to pray for her sister in law who has battled cancer for many years, she said I know you pray, you really pray so will you dedicate your mass on Sun to Diana who is having test done on Mon Morning at 7:ooam? Well, with that she reeled me back in because I believe that tha...

Once again, long time since I've written. I hardly know where to begin so I'll just go by situations. The shit hit the fan once again with my troubled brother Jim. We have not heard a word from him for a year and then the week of Dad's big golf outing, we all hear from him through e-mail, he request we all "friend" him via e-mail. My radar went off and had to check into things and without going into detail he has at least two big scams going on. My parents were contacted by a friend of Jim's who has basically been supporting him and has just now realized that he is a drug addict. He all remember telling this man this information but he was shocked conforted Jim and he became livid. He has now verbal abused mom & dad via e-mail and on their answering machine. He is so very desperate and sick he would do anything to anyone without caring who he hurts. He is a complete socialpath and deserate drug addict. Sister Mar, is all good news. She has made a ...

Today my sister got the pathology results of a mole she had removed last week. They were positive for melanoma. She now has to go back on the 27th to have the rest of the area removed and checked out. We are all praying that they got it at the beginning stage and removed all the cancerous cells. Little sissy you are in my continuous prayers.

My family has been through so much, so we are never surprised really when the phone rings with an urgent problem. This happened last week and without going into to much detail about the problem I thought maybe I'd focus on what I thought the solution may be. I see life as a pie chart or a balancing act. You see, I believe that everything you choose to do and enjoy doing is okay as long as you do it in moderation. You really should sit down and literally draw a circle on a piece of paper and make wedges. Title each wedge to represents things in your life such as, career, family, social, religion, money, hobbies etc. You usually know right away if something is lacking in one or more of your categories. So you just need to reevaluate and rein back. I mean if you start partying to much you may see a lack in your career or religion. I have noticed this in my own life for a very long time that if one category is out of whack,then I need to reevaluate and make changes. Once again, we have...